random thoughts from my head

well i got my first commission check today and it was pretty sweet. i won't tell you how much it was for, but i will say that even though i make $10 bucks an hour, w/ my bonus i made $12. so i'll get my car inspected (first thing in the morning) and treat myself to a lunch!

so now my birthday list has grown to 3 things. smackdown vs. raw 2006 for ps2, medal of honor european assault, and POD's new CD. hopefully mom is reading this, haha. when i get my federal income taxes back i plan to get at least one of those 3 things, maybe 2. probably smackdown vs. raw 2006, cuz the game before that i've played too much i think, there's nothing else to unlock so that might start to get old soon.

not a whole lot going on right now as usual, but i guess that's good right? i have $58 left on my doctor's bill, and i need to get to the doctor for a few things but i'm going to wait till that's cleared up. but the sweet part is w/ my new insurance it only costs $15 bucks to hit the doctor now, as opposed to like 60 w/out it.

crap man i just realized aside from getting coury a (really) late birthday present, i hafta get denyell something cuz she got me that cool elvis doll for Christmas. and denyell is the most impossible person to shop for, in part because i'm so worried about getting her something she'll like, and in part because she's like me: if she likes something, she buys it, leaving friends w/ no idea what to get her.

random thought of the day: how do i get my name to show up on someone's caller ID when i use my cell phone?

well my income tax forms are on their way to the capitol building and the white house, and i should have them by the beginning of april. i actually should get my state taxes back in less than a month but i won't hold my breath. i forgot to ask how much i'm getting back, i better go do that now...

so my mom says i'm getting $1054. and that's actually great news because i've already said how much i need to do for my car, and i should be able to. it sucks in a way because even that money will disappear, and anything that doesn't is sitting in my account, i sure as heck won't spend it. but i gotta get coury something cuz i didn't get him anything for his birthday, and he got me a bunch of stuff for my birthday last april so i gotta do something for him.

i haven't like gone out w/ friends in forever. when i worked at emery waterhouse i used to go out at least like twice a month. but for the last 3 months or so i just have been so poor. i bought wrestling tickets and i'm still paying for those, and i'm making "enough" money but not enough to say go out ever. oh well.

i gained another pound!! i'm up to 159 now. i gotta cut my diet back even more starting next week. i eat a good breakfast, a small lunch, a few snacks and dinner at work. i gotta stop eating when i get home from work at 9:45, and just go to sleep. that way i won't eat right before i go to sleep and that'll stop me from gaining more weight! i'm a genius. i call it the no supper diet. try it.

random thought of the day: i really don't live in a van down by the river.

well i got on the scale yesterday and i'm back up to 160. *tear* i'm going to have to cut back on something i guess. the lowest i hit was 158, so now i have a new record to try and break. i have some ideas on how to lose weight, all of which don't include excercise. *grins*

work is going good i suppose. i got my first prescription the other day. it only cost me 10 bucks, when it usually cost me 30. but the insurnace is 35 bucks a month, so now this medicine cost me 45 bucks a month. so i guess i gotta get sicker and take more stuff so this great insurance is worth it for me, but it really is unbeatable if you compared it w/ any other company.

i finally made a new mix CD. jason's 'this-mix-makes-no-sense' mix volume 16. it's funny cuz when i got to 9 i thought i was all done but now i've done 7 more so it's just an exciting thing! or a stupid thing that a stupid guy gets excited about.

i'm going through this phase where i miss my old job at emery, and i miss living in an apartment. even though alot of things about emery i hated, and alot of things about living w/ 2 roommates i hated, but i just miss it. i'm hoping that i can find an apartment above someone's garage or something i can rent out w/ a friend of mine for say, 400 to 450 a month. my uncle is doing that right now but i don't wanna live there cuz he lives deep in the woods and i can't get my free cable and internet, and don't want to pay for them either. plus, i don't even have a friend of mine i could live with, cuz out of my few friends they either are in college, going to college, or don't wanna move out. so i'm screwed w/ that i guess

random thought of the day: never let the sun go down on your wrath

i worked martin luther king jr. day and i got double time for it. i made 120 bucks more than i usually make, all for working one day. needless to say, i think i'll work every holiday from now on.

i went to the mall today and bought a new cell phone cover which is reall hot looking. i shopped for black and colored jeans that i could eventually buy to wear to work. the only kind of jeans i can't wear during the week is blue jeans except friday and saturday. owell. i'm just tired of dressing up is all.

today i got my hair cut and re-dyed. it came out a little little (yes i said little twice) too light but i don't mind it at all. if my skin was a little darker i might not mind so much, but i'm so pale.

not much to write about, just thought i'd update. like anyone reads this friggin thing anyways.

random thought of the day: i honestly don't like reading. i see the movie. it's quicker.

i finally have my first camera phone. i bought it off ebay and it had a few cracks but i superglued those together. seriously. it's works totally fine no problems whatsoever. it's pretty scratched though but tomorrow i'm going to buy a new cover for it so it's all good.

my w-2 from time warner was mailed out to me on january 31st so i should get it tomorrow or friday. which means i'll have all my tax info and will be on my way to getting my refund in about 2 months. also my insurance kicked in today and that means i can get my prescription renewed for a measely 15 bucks. considering i was paying twice that all along, i'm pretty happy.

i think tomorrow i'm going to see underworld evolution. there's really nothing good out there at all to see. i saw the narnia movie and have to say i was so extremely disappointed. they changed so much in the story it was barely the same. i've read the lion, the witch, and the wardrobe 3 times and it is soooooo much better than the movie. so much better.

not alot going on right now. i found out my parents don't want free cable here. well actually they do but they want it wired underground from the road and they won't do that. aerial drops only. sorry jason - you're effed again. would have been nice getting 70 free channels. would make getting cussed at and yelled at all day long almost worth it.

random thought of the day: don't say pluck. it's a dumb word. say tweeze. "so do you tweeze you eyebrows?" it's so much better.

well unfortunately i had to admit something to myself today: i've lost so much weight that my rings won't fit anymore. which is sad cuz i had 4, and i liked wearing them. then 2 got too big, so i started wearing 2 rings around town. then at the beginning of december i realized that now those last 2 rings were getting too big. but i kept wearing them. the other day i weighed myself and it said 158. so i would venture a guess that those rings will never fit again *sad face*. i'll just give them to george. i've given him like every ring i've ever owned and got rid of so he should like them. me and coury are meeting him for breakfast tomorrow anyways so there you go!

it's so weird about this weight thing too. i'm getting pumped about it all over again. i thought i bottomed out at 160 for a few months and then after thanksgiving i went back up to 164. when i changed jobs to time warner i changed my diet cuz i wasn't doing any physical work anymore so i figured i should eat less and subsequently lost 6 more pounds. i'll take it.

still haven't gotten my W2 from emery waterhouse. which sucks cuz i want my income tax refund so i can have my car looked at, buy my 4 new tires, and not have to worry about it until fall. regardless of the fact that the e-break was supposedly fixed but it still doesn't work right which will always bother me. owell. he better give me a sticker for it when i go back next month!!

random thought of the day: where does it say drinking alot of diet soda is really bad for you?

well i dropped my car off this morning to be fixed. my inspection runs out next month and my e-break was terrible so i don't know if he's going to tighten it, if such a thing can be done, or put a new one on. nor do i know how much he's going to charge me. but he did a lot of work on my car last june and charged me a very awesome low price so i can't imagine he'd stiff me this time.

as soon as i get my income taxes back i need to service my transmission and get a front end alignment. i'm pretty sure i'll get a few hudred dollars back which will be nice. the sad part is i will have to put every freaking dime into my car. the rear breaks need to be changed as well, and i think the rear shocks might be bad. i'll have a mechanic look at the shocks when he does the rear breaks. but i don't think my car is going to be "all systems go" until after my birthday which is the last week of april. speaking of which, i have to work my birthday this year, and i didn't last year so i'm already a little depressed about that.

so here is two pieces of super news! the first is i'm bidding on a used camera phone off ebay, and i think i'm going to get a pretty sick deal. i'm bidding on 2 phones, the same model, one is coming with a cell phone cover already on it and it's pretty dumb looking. like it's got bright blue with like cherries on it or something. but i was going to get a new cover for the phone i get anyways. also, i weighed myself this morning and i was shocked to see 158! it's the lowest i've been in a long long time. i had gained a few more pounds so i was up around 164 last month but looks like i lost even more. maybe i can lose like 5 or 6 more and get down around 150. that would be pretty flippin sweet!

random thought of the day: when a cab driver says "have a nice flight", don't say, "you too."

well alot has happened but none of it is funny or interesting or anything. i finally started my job at the end of last week. yesterday i was sitting w/ this guy and he really pissed me off. okay the only way to learn this job is to do it and make mistakes. it sounds weird but that's why they have someone sit w/ you and walk you through most of everything. so you can make mistakes and learn that way, but nobody gets affected cuz someone is sitting w/ you. the reason he pissed me off is he would be listening to my call, and if i wasn't going the way he wanted me to, he would jump in, tell the customer he was training, and take over they keyboard and just shut basically shut me off. i can't learn anything that way because he's now talking to the customer, and he's running the keyboard which means i can't get a better idea of our system. he did it almost every single call.

but that's pretty much my only complaint w/ the whole thing. i sat w/ this one woman who wasn't even listening to me, she was just there in case i needed any help and she would help me. so that was cool cuz i was in complete control and if i decided i needed help she was there.

aside from work there really isn't anything going on. i don't have much money at all so i haven't gone out anywhere or done anything. my car is making a funny sound now and i'm bummed about that. cuz when i get my income tax refund i already have to get a front end alignment and now i'll probably have to get my transmission serviced. this thursday i have to go see a local mechanic and ask him how much he'd charge to fix my e-break. my inspection runs on out in february and the only thing keeping me from passing is my e-break, and it uh, doesn't work. i can't imagine it's super expensive (hold my breath) cuz it's just a cable. but owell. i'm sure i'll spend myself into a whole.

random thought of the day: when trying to operate a cable box, please remember to plug it in before you call.

i had a really good Christmas, despite one awful side note: at about 4 o' clock i got hit w/ THE FLU!!!! i got a headache, i almost puked (several times), i was so weak and tired. i feel all right this morning but i had like no energy last night. even drinking just water upset my stomach. i didn't eat anything all day, man it was bad.

but as far as Christmas went it was really awesome. i love it when i get thoughtful gifts you know? don't buy me something just to buy me something you know? denyell (my best buddy ever) got me a little elvis statue that stands in front of a back drop holding a microphone. it's really detailed and once more, it actually looks like elvis a little bit. i love the King, so denyell was extremely thoughtful w/ that. i got a chronicles of narnia calendar, an expository book on "the lion, the witch, and the wardrobe," and some BBC produced movies from the narnia series. they're not "good" movies but they're still a good watch. probably more for kids but i liked em. my mamma got me the scene it DVD w/ the sequel pack so i get more movies to play with. plus an extra game piece.

i got some gift certificates to some restaurants which i like cuz i don't have any money but i like to eat out. so those were thoughtful. my grandparents got me a yankee hat and 2 bottles of echinacea which is expensive. they're like 9 bucks for a bottle of 250 and i have 2 bottles. i take 4 of those a day so they go fast.

then after we opened presents me and my brother in law got to hang out for one of the first times ever when we played medal of honor: rising sun which we played for about 2 hours. then jamie came over and i got really sick so i wasn't much fun to be around cuz of that but like i said, i feel a little better this morning. a little headache but i just hope i don't have that upset stomach. i love eating.

random thought of the day: no one can enter narnia the same way twice.

it was real interesting on sunday night. my dad came home incredibly drunk and started yelling at me and my sister about being lazy (i'm the only one in the house who works) how we don't shovel snow or anything. here's the thing, it snows while i'm at work, and all the shoveling is done when i get home so how am i lazy? something about being called a selfish bastard by your father is a little unsettling.

so we haven't spoken since sunday night, including tonight. as soon as i went downstairs and walked by him he left the room anyways so i guess he doesn't wanna talk to me, like i'm the one calling him names. he's said some mean things before, and just been real mean before, but he's never called me names. and when my mom used to call me mean mean names he would always stick up for me. so this is why it's hitting me hard.

merry Christmas to all. i hope you all get what you want/need. it's my favorite time of the year. it is the night of our dear Savior's birth. i'm not big on presents anymore i've found out. it's a combo of the fact that when i need something, i buy it. and also i'm coming to an understanding of the true meaning of Christmas so presents are slowly becoming secondary to Christmas day.

it's been nice working 8 to 5 at time warner for my training, but next week i start working 12 to 9. those aren't bad hours at all. it'll be nice waking up at 9 every day. and getting out at 9 at night certainly isn't too late to do anything so people remember that when you wanna get together!

speaking of "getting together" i owe a huge bigtime gigantic thanks to two of my bestest friends coury and denyell. every time they get some free time or going out to eat or something they both call me and try to get together. though most of the time i can't (jamie), it's so awesome to know you have 2 friends like them. did i ever mention that if i ever get married coury will be in my wedding?

random thought of the day: I KNOW WRESTLING IS FAKE!! BIG FREAKIN' DEAL MAN!!